Under the blissful sunset and the
slight brisk of breeze, Oscar played on terrace. He kept lifting his leg to
sprinkle water over the dried surface. Not paying much attention to him, I
worked on my laptop, thinking about the academic courses and their entrances.
Oscar has a pressing habit of
sniffing around every iota of his surroundings but the sad part was that I let
him sniff the place, he shouldn’t have sniffed.
I, being too engrossed with my work, didn’t notice that my dog was making his way under the water tanks; he was struggling to reach the corner of that little space that reserved two lives.
I, being too engrossed with my work, didn’t notice that my dog was making his way under the water tanks; he was struggling to reach the corner of that little space that reserved two lives.
Suddenly I heard screeches,
desperate cries of newborn animals. Confusion clouded me and so I scanned the
whole place but couldn’t find Oscar. My heart gave a thud when I realized that
my dog was beneath the water tank, doing something brutal to ‘some-ones’.
I called him out, angrily; I tried to bring him back but I couldn’t, I just couldn’t make him stop killing those two small kittens that were crying for help.
And then they stopped crying, Oscar had done his bit by shredding them into bits. The moment breezed past me within seconds making me helpless.
I called him out, angrily; I tried to bring him back but I couldn’t, I just couldn’t make him stop killing those two small kittens that were crying for help.
And then they stopped crying, Oscar had done his bit by shredding them into bits. The moment breezed past me within seconds making me helpless.
And then I realized that I was scared. I was
scared to physically stop my dog because I knew he would bite me. I was so
engrossed in my pain that I let those kittens shriek before entering the mouth of death. The thought of choosing
myself over the muted beings, destroyed me completely. I had lost.
Later, I realized while I was
scared of my dog, I was also scared for him. I didn’t want him to fall sick
while he was biting into the kittens.
That was the most shameful thought, I had thought of at that time. But
now as I think over it, I don’t find it as shameful as I had once thought of it
to be because Oscar is my person, he
is my dog.
Anybody would first think of his family and then the rest and that’s what I did. With this, I also realized that I am a very petite human, confined into the cages of selfishness. I became small; the eyes that looked at me from within had suddenly closed.
Anybody would first think of his family and then the rest and that’s what I did. With this, I also realized that I am a very petite human, confined into the cages of selfishness. I became small; the eyes that looked at me from within had suddenly closed.
I called up the Vet and narrated
the incident. He told me to give a bath to my dog and prescribed a few
injections. And so I cleansed him off the blood of two innocent souls. I also
murmured few words of softness to him, so that he wouldn’t bite me. Yet again,
I was scared but I couldn’t help.
People say you can wash your sins in Ganga. I wonder whether it’s true.
For me, one can never wash his sins. If he could, then washing sins with one’s tears or with tap water or Ganga, would mean the same. I felt the same too.
People say you can wash your sins in Ganga. I wonder whether it’s true.
For me, one can never wash his sins. If he could, then washing sins with one’s tears or with tap water or Ganga, would mean the same. I felt the same too.
Though I didn’t have stains to wash
off but the scars will remain. My fear engulfed two lives today.
He didn’t kill them; he killed me …
