When you Left ..

It was Wednesday,

Just another day of July,

You sang to yourself

And I knew you were high!

“Let me drive”, was what you said,

Without paying heed to me,

You drove the car instead.

“You’re drunk!” I shouted,

You made fun of me and pouted.

Your senses had abandoned you,

Your gestures seemed grimy.

And when you picked up speed,

The car became shimmy.

It was an easy departure for you it seemed,

You lost control when the truck’s headlight beamed.

I lost you right then and there,

Broke some of my bones,

And just headed for despair.

All that you have left me now,

Is a small building made of stone,

It’s not a home anymore,

Cuz I live there all alone.

The whispers of the wind,

Do brush through my ears.

The silent emotions buried deep inside,

Trickle down as tears.

Nobody comes to sit beside me,

When I weep under the willow.

For the world, I might be asleep,

But I still cry under the pillow…

BLACK

Never knew what Light was,

Its meaning,

I couldn't find.

A plain simple color

That guides my being,

And people call me ‘Blind’

I wonder why they

Look down upon ‘Black’,

Why is it always maligned?

A plain simple color

That guides my being,

And people call me ‘Blind’

Black embraces all with open arms,

Nobody’s a winner and

No one’s behind,

A plain simple color

That guides my being,

And people call me ‘Blind’

What is there to see

in the World of Colors?

Where the spectrum of Thoughts,

Remain un-aligned,

A plain simple color

That guides my being,

And people call me ‘Blind’

‘Darkness’ is what, you believe it to be,

It resides in the nooks of your mind,

A plain simple color

That guides my being,

And then You call me ‘Blind!'

Someday

    

Cuz I know you'll read it Someday!

The leaves that died

waiting for you,

The winds that

changed course,

The dust that coagulated itself,

Around the windows and doors…

It has been so long,

And you might not know,

Little Henry has grown tall.

I wish you could see him holding your hand

And say – “I’ll catch you when you fall”

Whiskey still sniffs around you,

In the hope that you might wake up.

And I wonder how charming you look everyday,

Even without that filthy make-up.

It has been one year now,

Since you fell from the top floor,

Okay, it’s not exactly a year,

But today is 364!

The doc says there’s not much hope,

And tomorrow, they’ll take you away.

But I’m gonna keep this letter in your pocket,

Cuz I know you’ll read it Someday!

It’s more than Just a Drink!

I had always wanted a father,

And not a staggering man. 

I always wanted a dad,

Who wouldn’t fail to stand,

Alas, I got someone who swayed with the wind’s stride,

And I had dreamt of having a father,

A strong shield, behind whom, I could hide.

I was never born to abhor you,

But my love for you started to die.

Had you chosen me over your addiction,

Then I wouldn’t have to cry.

I thrashed, I sniveled, I pleaded you to let go,

But you never bothered about me,

And gulped the liquor with a steady flow.

Even though I have you,

I still miss being a daughter,

For you won’t be there to protect me;

I am always up for slaughter.

When you fumble,

Think of the times,

You taught me how to speak.

When you stumble,

Remember how you sustained me,

When my legs were weak.

Please be a dad to me,

Be a man of pride,

Be someone, I can look up to,

And not someone,

Who’s bogged down by BEER’s tide.

Time that Flew away !

Bring me back the time,

When mum's hand was a spoon and her lap, a pillow...

When dad's arrival from work was most awaited...

When sibling rivalry was the toughest battle you ever fight...



Bring me back the time,

When friends were real and fighting with them was so easy...

when school meant just another early morning wake up...

when teachers were the sole species that knew everything...




Bring me back the time,

When politics meant just another caricature in the newspaper...

When tears knew no hesitations and laughter had no limitations...

When gadgets never coagulated you...



Bring me back the time,

When you never wanted to fly like a bird...

You were happy with what you were...


Bring me back THAT time...

A SMALL STAY

You held me close to you

When the world kept me away,

You kept me in your womb,

Even though I wasn’t supposed to stay.

‘Illegitimate’, was the name,

That was given to me,

But you called me ‘son’,

Despite of the darkened spree.

I could see you crying

When tears escaped my eyes,

I could hear you prying,

When my decisions were not wise.

You gave me all the love and care,

But now that you are leaving me,

Do you think it’s fair?

It’s not that I am not happy

To see you happy again,

But why did you bring me here,

Was I worth the pain?

I know you’ll forget me

As soon as you have a replacement,

But just think about me, mother,

How can I forget the times,

That we had spent?

“I will not accept that boy”,

That’s what your new husband said,

I am glad that you didn’t see me that day,

And neither my tear soaked bed.

But let me tell you mother,

This small stay with you

Was all that I wanted,

For now the fear of losing you,

Won’t keep me daunted.

I wish that you remain happy forever,

And I promise you,

That you’ll see me never…

THE LAST WISH

I loved you with my heart,

I loved you with my soul,

But the world kept us apart,

And gave my heart a painful hole…

My life is short and I will die,

But just once, can’t I say good bye..?

I want to look in your eyes,

And say “don’t cry...”

I know I won’t find you,

You are thousand miles away.

Can’t these borders be erased?

Just for today?

I remember the day,

When you went away,

To fight with bullets and guns,

To run with pouring blood n wounds,

As if they were your companions.

I could sense something wrong,

Unaware of the unlucky star.

My senses proved me right,

You were among the prisoners of war...

My tears went dry,

And my fears started to cry,

I didn’t know whether,

You would live or die...

And now my life is on its verge,

Life is slowly drowning,

And death is waiting to emerge.

My last wish is that you come to my funeral,

And sing me a dirge…